I have thought of 100 things to blog about, each was quickly accompanied by a much more pressing task. It is sad that I am too busy to blog. S.A.D.
My thoughts in a nutshell.....
~ I am crazy nervous about finishing up this semester. Still LOTS to do. I have felt behind the entire semester and my nerves have made a muscle in my stomach twitch. I can tell how worried I am by how much the twitching is bugging me. SAD
~ I am crazy sore from all this running! 4 weeks ago, I thought I would face-plant into the asphalt trying to run 60 seconds. Last night I ran 3 minutes, 5 minutes, 3 minutes, 5 minutes and actually enjoyed it. I am glad I like running (well, as much as iI can 'like' exercise). I just wish my body would cooperate a little more. I think I am beginning to show my age. SAD
~ I am crazy tired - umm cause I am..... I do way too much in a week. SAD
In all the crazy - I am learning sooooo much. So much about history. So much about life. So much about the kind of person I want to be...
My daily struggle is to stay in the 'working for the future' zone required to get through school at an accelerated pace while learning to live in the moment, as not to miss these precious years in my children's lives. I will never get these years back. So as much as I feel compelled to live for tomorrow - I am determined to live for today!
As much as I freak out - I LOVE school! I love being in a classroom soaking up all kinds of knowledge. I love, love, love learning new things. The whole process is incredible to me.
And more than I love school, I love 11 and 6 year old little girls. They are sweet and sassy. They are precious and smelly. They are amazing and messy. I enjoy my children now more than I ever have. Daily they teach me things, make me think, and surprise me with their ability to love their crazy old momma.
Yes, my life has had to wrap completely around being a student, teacher, wife, and mother. Yes, there is no room for anything else right now (not even blogging). Yes, it is crazy. Yes, it is hard. Yes, I am happier than I have ever been.
I think it isn't so sad after all!
